214) 10/10/2001 - 10/10/2011 ... 10 ans déjà!!

الحمد لله .. ومن قلب قلبي بأقولها ..
الحمد لله .. اليوم من أعماقي أشعرها ..

الصدمة كانت جامدة قوي .. مأقدرش أنكر دا .. لكن كمان مأقدرش أنكر إنها كانت فيها الشفاء!ا

حلم حياتي باظ من عشر سنين بالضبط -أو لتعبير أكثر دقة- اللي كنت فاكراه حلم حياتي
وساعتها كنت فاكرة إني هأموت .. هأموت بجد يعني مش هزار!ا
المدهش .. إني دلوقتي حاسة إنه أحسن حاجة حصلت لي بحياتي .. إنه باظ .. وراح في ستين *****! - مش لسبب غير إني إتأكدت دلوقتي إنه ماكنش خير خااالص .. وفهمت إني كنت عيلة شبطانة في اللعبة الوحيدة اللي لا يمكن تنفعها و تسعدها .. فربنا رحمة منه بها كسرها اللعبة دي علشان تسيبها خالص .. ففضلت هي تلصمها وتصلحها بإصرار لحد ما عورتها - كان لازم تتوجع علشان تتعلم .. وكان لازم تتجهز علشان تتحمل .. وكان لازم تتعد حتي لو هتتألم

إنهاردة العيلة فهمت قد إيه العشر سنين دول كانوا مهمين
وإن الصدمة .. كانت حنية
والحلم اللي باظ .. كان رفق
وإن الوجع .. كان طبطبة
والظلم .. كان حب .. حب كبير!ا
وإن الحرمان .. كان حضن .. حضن دافي قوي

الحمد لله يا رب ..
أعدتني .. وجهزتني .. وعلمتني .. واصطفيتني .. واجتبيتني .. وبنيتني .. ورزقتني .. وهديتني .. واعطيتني .. وجبرتني .. واستعملتني .. ونصفتني .. ونصرتني .. وراضيتني .. وفهمتني ..... وخلقتني من جديد!ا
...

دلوقتي بس أنا جاهزة علشان أحلم حلم جديد .. وهأعمل خطة جديدة لحياة جديدة ..
ومش هأزعل ..
...

مش عارفة ليه متفائلة .. وحاسة إن مصر بتتوجع دلوقتي علشان بعد عشر سنين هتدهش العالم كله

إهدئ يا مصر .. فالقادم أجمل .. ولك رب سيعطيكي حتي ترضي
...

180) !سبب لقاهم إيييه؟! .. وكان فراقهم ليييه؟

ياما ناس بتتقابل من غير ميعاد يجمع بينهم
وناس بتتحايل علي الفراق يبعد عنهم

!سبب لقاهم إيييه؟! .. وكان فراقهم ليييه؟

.. وأنا وأنت
.. تلاقينا بعد الأوان
.. وإفترقنا قبل الأوان

!ويظل سؤال وحيد يراودني .. لماذا يا أوان؟
...

133) Tout Est Possible/Everything Is Possible!

In the world we live in... if a boy goes out to buy seven apples... but he arrives with only one... people would probably conclude that he had eaten the six missing apples...
But in my world, everything is possible... Tout Est Possible!
Yes he could have eaten them... But there are many other possibilities:
- He could have been robbed.
- He could have lost them on the way home.
- He could have met some friends and gave an apple to everyone.
- The money might not have been enough to buy 7 apples.
... and so on

mmm... Do you think that he decided to save the money in order to buy something else ;)?Well, in my world, everything is possible... everything is relative...
...

127) !! شئ يئن بداخلي

من الصعب ألا يكون لدي حلم .. أحيا به .. وله أحيا
ولكن الأصعب أن يضيع حلمي .. أو يتمزق .. أو يهرب مني .. أو أهرب منه
ولكن إلي أين؟
هل يهرب الإنسان من ذاته؟
حلمي هو ذاتي .. أو هكذا أظن ..! هو أنا .. وأنا هو
والذات .. لا سبيل إلي أن أهرب منها
فمهما هربت .. فسأهرب إليها
سأهرب إليها
سأهرب إليها

. . .

125) Something I Learned!

Alexandria, Nov. 2010,

I learned something recently,
Our true friends are those who are with us when the good things happen... They cheer us on and are pleased by our triumphs...

False friends only appear at difficult times, with their sad supportive faces, when in fact, our suffering is serving to console them for their miserable lives...
...

123) !...إِلَيْهِ يَصْعَدُ الْكَلِمُ الطَّيِّبُ وَالْعَمَلُ الصَّالِحُ يَرْفَعُهُ

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَٰنِ الرَّحِيمِ

مَنْ كَانَ يُرِيدُ الْعِزَّةَ فَلِلَّهِ الْعِزَّةُ جَمِيعًا ۚ إِلَيْهِ يَصْعَدُ الْكَلِمُ الطَّيِّبُ وَالْعَمَلُ الصَّالِحُ يَرْفَعُهُ ۚ وَالَّذِينَ يَمْكُرُونَ السَّيِّئَاتِ لَهُمْ عَذَابٌ شَدِيدٌ ۖ وَمَكْرُ أُولَٰئِكَ هُوَ يَبُورُ
صدق الله العظيم

لم يسبق لي أن حملت طفلا في أحشائي .. ولكنني أحمل هذه الآية في صدري وأعماقي .. وارتبط بها ارتباطا وثيقا جدا ..! كأنها طفلي .. وهي سيفي .. كأنها قلبي .. وهي في قلب قلبي .. كأنها دوائي .. وهي شفائي .. استمد منها العزه .. وطيب الكلم .. والبشري

...

... كل كلمة طيبة مفتاح من مفاتيح الحب

... والكلم الطيب لا يقف عند حد

... والعمل الصالح ما أكثره

ابتسم .. ابتسم لأن العمل الصالح يبدأ بابتسامة .. ابتسم حتي في وجه الحاقدين عليك .. واشفق عليهم .. وفقط تذكر أن الفاشلين ليس لهم حاقدين .. ابتسم واقصد بالإبتسامة الجميلة .. والكلمة الطيبة .. والعمل الصالح .. وجه الله ورضاه

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around. - Leo Buscaglia

كثيرا ما نقلل من أهمية لمسة .. ابتسامة .. أو كلمة حانية .. أذن صاغية .. أو مجاملة صادقة .. أو أصغر فعل يدل على اهتمامك بالآخرين .. مع أن هذه الأشياء يمكنها أن تغير العالم - ليو بوسكاجليا

. . .

116) A Unique Day :D !!

Today is a unique day

20/10 - 20'10

... and actually, it's a Boootiful Day ;D

...

114) Nothing is for sure!

Micheal Chrichton said: " I am certain there is too much certainty in the world"
But I actually agree with another writer who says: "Nothing is for sure" ... Yes. Nothing. Absolutely-Nothing-is-for-sure!
Who knows what the fate reserves for you, them, or me?
One can spend hours, days, weeks, months, or even yeaaars without feeling anything new... Then, when a door opens, a positive avalanche pours in... One moment you have "nothing"... The next you have more than you can hope or cope with. [and vice versa].

Who knows what the fate reserves for us!

What... ?

... Mmmm... Love?!

Money?! ... a treasure ya3ni?!

Babies...?!! Oh, yes. Yes :D
Babies are 7aga gamila awi awi... They are the most beautiful blessing in the world. Yes- bass el-agmal when they grow up... If we give them their needs, education, jobs, and nice houses; they will give in return a future, children, and perhaps grandchildren. Isn’t that lovely?! to carry with you part of your past, present, and a little of your beautiful future...

♥ ♥ ♥

111) Something To Think About . . .

As we grow up, we learn that even the person [or let me say the "one" person] that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will... You will have your heart broken probably more than once... and it's harder every time...
You will break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken...
You will fight with a close friend [maybe your best friend]...
You will blame a new love for things an old one did... !!!
You will cry because time is passing too fast...
... and you will eventually lose someone you love ... :(

So...

♥ Take too many pictures . . .

♥ Laugh too much . . .

♥ and Love. love like you have never been hurt . . .

Because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you will never get back!
. . .

110) Salam.Sweet.September :: New Beginnings.Fresh Resolutions!

Good Bye September . . .

I . Love . YOu . . .

and I LOve Being a Virgo . . .

and I believe that VIRGO - THE PERPECTIONIST

Dominant in relationships. Consevative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very Smart. Very Creative. Dislikes noice and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk. Hard to please. Practical. Often Shy. Vehhhry Organized. Sensitive. LOving. Generous. Optimistic. . .

But -lel2asaf- it seems that 2010 is the year of loosing some of my great dreams and lots of my beautiful smiles, for a whole bag of reasons > > > Mom who raised me is suffering from a serious illness. My country that I love is dying. The people I used to respect, appreciate, understand and love do not care... and sooo much emotions are suppressed. But the biggest one is that, by then, ... well, ... I'll keep it to myself a7ssan.
This doesn't mean I've to stop living ya3ni. La2. I think kaman eno it's time ba2ah for a new beginnings and fresh resolutions...

For me, peace is the most important thing, and I believe that peace begins with a smile -a beautiful one- and a smile is the key to forgiviness. and Forgiviness is the key to action and freedom... O keda...

Yesterday is not ours to recover. Khalass. But tomorrow is ours to live ba2ah and to stay more comfortable, more assured, more confident, less stressed, happier, more positive... and the list goes on... Simply tomorrow is ours to win or lose... and winning doesn't always mean being first, but it means we're doing better than we've done before...

New Beginning . Fresh Resolutions . For a Better Tomorrow

1) Challenge Yourself and forget about the past with all its beautiful/good and bad sides/experiences/memories.

2) Challenge Yourself. Fight. and Come back ba2ah... !

3) Challenge Yourself and never again waste your energy, time, heart on someone who doesn't [won't say deserve you] value you.

You may say I'm a dreamer. I'm not. or maybe I'm not the only one. I just believe that everything we can imagine is real... Don't Worry. Be Happy. We need to find a way to live the life...

P.s. The real Rawanie is fighting to come back, and al7amdulellah, final count down has started! :D

Salam . Sweet . September
♥ ♥ ♥

P.p.s> This post is dedicated to someone that I have already lost his address!

105) !! لحظة الوداع

تعدي اللحظة والثانية .. تضيع ثانية وراء ثانية .. وكل الأوقات تمر .. وآتية آتية هذه اللحظة - لحظة الوداع! وكعادتي دائما أعيش هذه اللحظة الأخيرة في حيرة .. ويضيق صدري .. ولا ينطلق لساني .. وتهرب مني كل الحروف .. بأخاف قوي من الوداع .. ففيه تحتبس الكلمات .. وتتعزز العبارات .. لتحل محلها العبرات ..

وها أنا ذا أعيش اللحظات الأخيرة من رمضان وآتية هي اللحظة الأخيرة وتلك الحيرة .. ماذا أقول؟ ولماذا أراني أشعر وبشدة ولأول مرة بأنها مرة وأنه ربما يكون آخر رمضان؟ لماذا أجد كل هذه الأشواق في قلبي والدموع تملا عيناي ولا استطيع ردها؟

وجدني الآن وفي هذه اللحظة أريد أن أسألك .. لو كان العمر لحظة .. أي لحظة ستختار؟

[لحظة حب .. لحظة صفاء .. لحظة لقاء .. لحظة فراق .. لحظة صلح .. لحظة حلم .. لحظة حقيقة .. لحظة ألم .. لحظة أمل .. لحظة جرح .. لحظة فرح .. لحظة خوف .. لحظة أمان .. لحظة وهم .. لحظة بكاء .. لحظة شفاء .. لحظة نجاح .. لحظة صبر .. لحظة إيمان .. لحظة يقين ..] أي لحظة ستختار؟

أي لحظة تهنيت فيها .. وبكيت منها وعليها؟ أي لحظة تهرب منها .. وتبعد عنها .. وتنتظرها؟

مجرد رأي: الإختيار لك ولكن حابة أعطيك إشارة للبعد عن لحظة الوداع .. حاول أن تتجنب قسوتها ما استطعت

. . .

95) And He Thinks What He Always Thinks!

He is never satisfied . . .
If he has a little, he wants more . . .
If he has a lot, he wants still more . . .
Once he has more, mmm, wala balash . . . !
. . . and he thinks what he always thinks . . .

Is it just that he doesn't understand how simple happiness is?
I don't know . . .
He always asks . . .
Who am I?
What am I doing here?
I don't need this. I don't need that. In fact, I need very little from everyone. I have all I want. I am big! I am great! I Am Big Mind . . .
I can have any woman I desire. Even though, I am lonely, and alone, and tired . . .
I NEED TO FIND MY PARTNER!!
I want her to be young, sexy, pretty, intelligent, rich, and famous . . .
. . . and he thinks what he always thinks . . .

I was planning to be happy . . .
Why the hell I am not happy!!
People like me. and they adore my work. They always tell me that. Others call me a hero . . .
Women . . .
Oh women immediately find some way of approaching me. They praise and flatter me. and offer me what they think I need . . .
The only thing I am interested in is sex . . .
But all I want is to be left alone . . .
. . . and he thinks what he always thinks . . .

Then what?!!
. . .

86) What Does The World Want Of Me!

If I must be faithful to someone or something, then I have, first of all, be faithful to myself. If I’m looking for true love, I first have to get the mediocre loves out of my system. The little experience of life I’ve had has thought me that no one owns anything, that everything is an illusion - and that applies to material as well as spiritual things. Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever (as has happened often enough to me already) finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them.
And if nothing belongs to me, then there’s no point wasting my time looking after things that aren’t mine; it’s best to live as if today were the first (or last) day of my life.

...

75) Think & Thank!

About 70% of the things in our lives are beautiful and right. and about 30% of the things of our lives are bad. sad. and wrong. If we want to be happy, all we have to do is to concentrate on the bright and positive things, and ignore the other dark side. If we want to be unhappy, bitter, and worried, all we have to do is to concentrate on the wrong things and ignore the beauty of our lives.

... Think about it. Think & Thank!

Think of all you have to be grateful for. and Thank God for all your boons and bounties.

If you think happy thoughts, you will be happy.
If you think miserable thoughts, you will be miserable.
If you think fear thoughts, you will feel fearful.
If you think sickly thoughts, you will probably be ill.
If you think failure, you will certainly fail.
If you think you are poor, you will feel poverty.
If you think you are rich,you will feel richness.
and so on ...
Here, I have a question, and it’s your turn to answer: Enta Ali Baba? in other words, are you rich enough?

... Think & Thank

Would you sell both your eyes for a billion $? and What would you take for your two legs? Your hands? Your health? Your pride? Your family? Your friends? ...

... Think & Thank

*Remember*

• Napoleon had everything men usually crave - glory, power, riches - yet he said: “I have never known six happy days in my life.” :/

• Helen Keller - blind, deaf, dumb - declared:”I have found life sooo beautiful.” :D

... Think & Thank

“ You are not what you think you are; but what you think, you are.”

... Think & thank :D

45) Do You Miss Someone ?

Looking out of the window hoping that he will surprise her by appearing downstairs.
Logging on to the Internet hoping to see him online.
Worring if he is OK.
And start writing ...

I’m sitting here ...
Missing you ...
Just wishing you were here ...
That means something, doesn’t it ?!
That means something, doesn’t it ?!
That means something, doesn’t it ?!
... Well ...
I’m going to find a way to be happy ...
And I’d really love to be happy with you ...
But if I can’t be happy with you ...
... Then ...
I’ll find a way to be happy without you!
I’ll find a way to be happy without you!
I’ll find a way to be happy without you!
-------------

Missing someone is a sweet feeling :) Isn’t it ?
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone. You know that you really care and you indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him. But missing someone and not knowing if he is feeling the same is terrible. So if you really miss someone, tell him. And If you are the one being missed and you know it, let the other party know.

So ...

Do You Miss Someone ?!

15) Ra3d O Bark!!

{ومن آياته يريكم البرق خوفا وطمعا وينزل من السماء ماء فيحيي به الأرض بعد موتها إن في ذلك لآيات لقوم يعقلون}

{ويسبح الرعد بحمده والملئكة من خيفته ويرسل الصواعق فيصيب بها من يشاء}

----------------------------------------------------------------

لا تعجب... ! يبدع رب الأرباب ليرينا من آياته (ولله المثل الأعلي) - ونحن نبدع دائما في رؤية أخطاء الناس وملاحظتها .. وربما في تنبيههم عليها .. والضغط علي جروحهم التي نعلمها والتي لا نعلمها .. وربما نقتلهم بالكلمات .. ولكننا قلما نبدع في رؤية الخير الذي عندهم .. والانتباه للصواب الذي يمارسونه .. لنمدحهم به...!! وقلما نبدع في تقدير الحب الذي أعطوه .. والجهد الذي بذلوه .. ليساعدونا وليسعدونا وفقط ...! أحسن النية وأسرف في المديح واقتصد في النقد .. و باختصار .. من تواضع لله رفعه .. وما زاد الله عبدا بالتواضع إلا عزا .. ارحم الناس فإنك لا تعلم ما بداخلهم .. وقدر مشاعرهم .. واعذرهم .. فإنك لا تعلم كل شئ عنهم .. وارفق بهم .. فما كان الرفق في شئ إلا زانه .. وما نزع من شئ إلا شانه .. فتذكر قدرة الله عليك واختر أطيب الكلام كما تختار أطيب الثمار ..

تجربة: الإعتذار في البداية خير من الإعتذار في النهاية - ارحم نفسك من ندم لن تقوي علي إحتماله

رواني

2) My Inside Feelings . . . !

I miss you . . .
I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with.

I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who undrestands me so well.

I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear.

I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other; for those were some of the best times of my life!