We’re all different. You are a dreamer. He is very thoughtful. She is the sensitive one. They are straight. and I’m ... well, I write entirely to find out what I'm thinking, what I'm looking at, what I see and what it means. What I want and what I fear.


Thursday, January 6, 2011

141) Different Christmas Time!

I wish if I could feel the Christmas spirit that comes every year with positive wishes and peace... but what I have experienced this year is completely different; my Christians colleagues (the majority but not all of them) totally avoid any communication with me just because I am Muslim since this terrible accident... never to say even good morning... I really don't know what did I do wrong? I never tried to bother or hurt one of them not even with a very small word or gesture. We used to have a reciprocal love and respect to each other for years, fa ma32oula one week is capable of doing all that... and destroying all what we have built in years!

Yesterday, before leaving the office, I thought about just leaving quietly without saying a word; neither Merry Christmas nor even goodbye... but it didnt feel right. I wanted to say at least something to them; ya3ni it seemed so unkind to simply vanish keda... but it was nearly impossible too to get through the risk, le2eno I couldn't imagine their reaction.

Elmohem, I finally did. I said it; Merry Christmas... and actually it was a heavy thing to find no answer :( ... tab leih, begad leih?

P.s. This was my own experience, but there is no ta3mim. and again, Merry Christmas anyway.


Lamya said...

Touching as usual.....ma3lesh ya nonty i feel u wallahy and i know that that was not nice of them......but knowing u hardly i can say how considerate person u r......o3zoreehom habebty.....it was a VERY SAD LOSS.....did u watch wahed men el nass yesterday ?bgd 7aga sa3ba awyyyy.....rabena yestor 3ala masr fel ayam el gaya!!!
bass bardo homma 3'altaneen.....howa 7ad tayel nouna te2olo koll sana w enta tayeb ya3ny!!!
cheeeer up nounnty :D

Nouna said...

Tab isn't that what we call fetna?
Why ba2a they are saying Masr mafihash fetna!

... don't worry hun, am fine :)

Hebba said...

today I had a different experience.
elhamdollah my friends didn't abondom me for being moslem, maybe because we have known eachother since we were in KG.
I was raised in a sisters school, and you know these feelings are not there in kids.besides, back then we never had such differenciation, especially that my school is a german one, where we only counted as pupils of same school and that's it.
but you know what is my biggest concern now?would i be allowed to enter my home after these incidents, or would i be treated as a muslim terrorist for my hijab?
home is my school.it is a sisters school where we have a church meant to be for the german citizens in egypt.
you can not imagine how scared I am from finding out what the answer is.

Nouna said...

"People are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.

The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Be good anyway.

Honesty and frankness will make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.

People need help, but may attack you if you try to help them.
Help them anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God.
It was never between you and them anyway."