176) and I find myself wishing that it wasn't real :'(

Ahmed ra7.. ya tara eldor 3ala min?

Pain is all what I can feel.. and I find myself wishing that it wasn't real.. He left leaving us all hurt and making us suuuffer.. screaming out loud "aaaaaaah"!!! it is not easy.. it is hard.. loosing him is sooooo hard.. it is a heavy load to bear.. it still doesn't seem real.. it is Kabouuus and I just feel I want to wake up out of this kabous.. I am not sure if words can describe my exact feelings but the pain I feel now will probably never go away; this is exactly what I am feeling right now! two days passed and I am still in shock and I can't believe that it is happened, but it did.. it did!!! :'''((( Nothing is worst than the death of a loved family one.. he was young and full of life and life will never be the same walahi will never be the same tani.. I can still feel the soft touch on my shoulder of his loving hand.. I can still hear his voice telling me "I believe in you ya habibti".. "malek ya Rawanie? matfakarish ketir ya habibti".. ana mabsout menek 3alashan betakhdi balek min se7etek".. "3awez ashoufek beted7aki 3alatoul".. tab how can I smile now?!! I lie in bed and crrrrry at night and don't feel better in the morning light.. I will love you and miss you forever until the day we are again together in that perfect place in-sha2-Allah filled with caring, sharing, and love.. but until this day comes I will miss you every moment of life.. you were very close to me.. you were my best friend and brother.. you were my very dear cousin.. you will be always in my mind.. forever in my heart.. you will be missed ya Ahmed but never forgotten ya habibi :'(

bera7a 3alaya ya Rab :'( ...

175) ... وهكذا يأتي عمرو ليملؤني بالحب ويهديني زهرة المودة التي لا تذبل

ربما تصورني بلهاء .. أو لا أتمتع بقسط من الذكاء .. قصد أو لم يقصد فقد نهرني .. قصد أو لم يقصد فقد خذلني .. وللمرة المائة جرحني .. لم يبرر فعلته .. وأنا لم أعلق .. وأكره نفسي لأنني أنا التي أعطيته الفرصة أن يسقيني السم في العسل كعادته .. لحظات قاسية .. هنت عليه في لحظة بعينها .. وفي هذه اللحظة ملأني إحساس جارف بال... بال... حتي الكلمات تاهت وأبت أن تتركني تائهة وحدي .. ربما أصابني إحساس بالندم .. الندم الشدييييد الذي يشوبه خيط من القلق .. وربما إحساس بالشلل كلما أردت أن أخطو خطوة .. المهم أنه إحساس أفسد علي النهار كله! .. وأخيرا جاء عمرو .. جاء ليملؤني بالحب في يوم الأم .. يهدهدني .. ويهديني زهرة المودة التي لا تذبل .. جاء يناديني بصوته العذب .. وجري علي وضممته إلي بكل ما أملك من قوة .. فأخفي وجهه في صدري وأحس وكأنه قد بات جزءا مني .. "وضحكنا ضحك طفلين معا" ثم أغمض عينيه وازداد انكماشا في صدري

وله وحده أهديته هذه الكلمات

طفل جسور .. كزهرة برية

ولمحت "عمير" يطل علي من عينيه الذكيتين
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لأول مرة أحس أني أريد أن أعانق الأشجار
وأقبل الأرض الخضراء
وأمسح وجهي في مياه النيل
إنسان جديد استيقظ في داخلي
إنسان طال انطواؤه
حتي كادت أنفاسه تخمد
الإنسان الحنون .. الطيب .. الرقيق .. الودود .. المحب لكللل الناس
!.. كيف استطاع هذا المخلوق الصغير إيقاظه
!.. وكيف جعل وجهي يشرق كل هذا الإشراق
وضعت أنفي علي الزجاج أداعبه فكسته أنفاسي بطبقة من الضباب
ووجدتني بلا وعي ارسم كالأطفال اسمه بأصابعي
تري .. هل يستحق عطفي في يوم الأم؟
بل يستحق حياتي كلها .. إن به كل ما تمنيته في طفلي
...

.. وهكذا يأتي عمرو ليملؤني بالحب ويهديني زهرة المودة التي لا تذبل

يا رب احفظ عمرو وارزقني بعمير
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85) Alone & Lonely !!

I am home alone; again! and it will be for a while. I really feel sooo lonely. Lonely with all possible meanings of the word...

My dear Mom is in the hospital. Just left her and arrived home feeling like I will start to cry... My sister and her sweet small family [her hunsband, my cute niece, and my lovely nephew] are still in Jaddah...

My love, my true mate... Lost by the Fates... Found by the moon.

My love, my true mate... Come to me... Now, don't delay.

by Zsuzsanna E. Budapest

(Repeat three times.)

...

My question is: What is the difference between being lonely and alone?!

...

59) A Difference in Treatment!

One evening I was sitting in the kitchen with my lovely nephew -Amr- and after a brief discussion of something that was in his mind, Amoura said:” Nouna, I know that you love me very much”.
I was touched and said:” Of course ya habibi, I love you very much. Did you doubt it?
He responded: “NO. But I really know you love me because whenever I want to talk to you about something you stop whatever you are doing and listen to me...
I made it my business to listen carefully when one of my family or friends want to speak with me.

... Listening is just as important in one’s home life as in the world of business. Exclusive attention to the person who is speaking to you is very important. Nothing else is so flattering as that.

30) Mom - My True Love!

Inside Sentiment :

Mom,

if I had to say why I love you, I wouldn't know where to start - For I love you for everything you are and I love you with all my heart!

May Allah bless you Mom every moment in your life...

Happy Mother's Day

29) For A Special Papa!

Papa, it's Friday; exactly the time we used to spend together - I Miss You!

It hurts me sooo much to leave me Papa. It was not easy; I was young, yes. but I still remember everything, your love, your caress, your advices, your warm hug that always changed my metabolism, your kiss, your voice, your touch ... and your sudden departure!! Oh yes - I still remember. It was a Thursday , and it was not easy! I Do Miss You Papa! I hope that you always know whatever I do. and wherever I go. But you have to know that the moments I spent with you were the beautiful ones in my life - We were good friends you and me and you are the best Dad there can be. and you have to know that of alllll the places in the world, I like being with you Papa... I miss you and sooo many things to tell...

I Love You!

Gone but never forgotten . . .

26) Aunt or Mom !

The best thing of being AUNT not the MOM... is that you spared the agony of changing diapers and waking up at night to the shrieking sound of 60 cm human being...
You get to play with them, read stories, bring gifts.... and all of sudden you’re their favorite :D [Don’t take it personally Moms!]
They still love ❤ you best of all even if you spanked them day in day out...

Al7amdulellah for bringing my little lovely niece Rawane "Touta" and my cute nephew Amr "Moura"

4) Give Your Child Love!

Fathers,

Give your children LOVE, play with them and talk to them, they do love you and appreciate the moments you spend with them . . .

It is amazing how joyful they become when you do these sorts of things, and they will get impressed with this adult person, YOU!

More amazing, they will obey you immediately next time you send them to get water, but what really counts is the laugh and happiness you will see in their eyes . . .