196) I Don't فيل Good!

I don't feel good.. I- just- don't- feel- good.. may be it is just my work problems.. or it is about family obligations.. is it all about Egypt and what is happening everyday in the country; tensions, worries, arguments, ... etc. I don't even know.. sometimes, I just don't know exactly what is going wrong or if everything seem to be going wrong these days! .. I also don't know what should I do at this moment.. how I feel? wala khalas I am becoming maba7esesh khales fe3lan!!.. Do I really need someone in my life or is it that I want to stay alone.. is it that I think too much?.. tab how can I stop thinking?

... I am tired of everything and begad don't know what I want or at least I don't know how to express what I need.. no no.. to be very frank, I know. but the problem is that I can't talk; and each time I don't say what I wanna say, I am dying! well, it is better to remain silent, because if you can't understand my silence, you wont understand my words!

"If you have no faith in yourself, then have faith in the things you call truth. You know what must be done. You may not have courage or trust or understanding or the will to do it, but you know what must be done. You can't turn back. There is now answer behind you. You fear what you cannot name. So look at it and find a name for it. Turn your face forward and learn. Do what must be done."

- Patticia A. Mckillip

Bera7a 3alaya ya Rab..

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